when i made that last post i had no idea just how vulnerable i really am.
on the afternoon of Sunday, August 4th, my Master made the decision to take his own life.
we had a wonderful day and night together Saturday. we had a small argument in the early hours of Sunday morning and i left. he called and emailed all day asking me to come back. i really did intend to. i love him. i just thought we needed a few hours to calm down and then talk. he didn't wait for me, opting instead to put a bullet in his head.
i miss him. it hurts.