i realized this while talking with my son. he told me that i could go to jamaica. i've wanted to and haven't been. i responded, without thinking, that i would love to....that i could call the bob marley school and work there for a couple of weeks. i responded this way with every place he suggested...some organization or other with which i could "work" while i "vacation" there. he let me go on before he pointed out to me that i was incapable of taking what "normal" people call a vacation.
i spend my weekends volunteering somewhere. i took thursday and friday this week off work to work at the AIDS conference. my volunteer time is vacation.
it turns out afterall that i cannot go to the conference tomorrow because the woman i have been trying to fire is sick. i am supposed to work the LifeBeat table from 2:30 to 6:00. anyone want to take my place? it will be fun. it is a cool organization.