supposed external objects. of course, i've been thinking.......
how much of our world is not mind created?
one of my tibetan students very often said that the mind is like a drunken monkey. it is a common buddhist thought, but it was the first time i heard it spoken and it stuck in my drunken monkey mind.
in the bhagavad gita, krishna said "The mind is restless and difficult to control; but through practice and dispassion (renunciation) it can be conquered." the hindus take it a step further by comparing the mind as a drunken monkey stung by a scorpion. mine is that same monkey, stung by a scorpion and stuck on a trampoline.
i suffer terribly from drunken monkey mind. i struggle to quiet my mind. yes, i meditate. i have for years. but i can't say the monkey sobers up when i do. i am not a focused person. when i work i have more things going on at one time than i can count. my laptop always has at least five windows open, all active at the same time. i don't like to watch movies without commercials because the commercials give me a chance to hop up and do something in between the film. i've been called a ferret on speed. what do you get when you cross a drunken monkey and a ferret on speed?
when i go to sleep at night, it usually isn't until i am so exhausted that i cannot think connected thoughts anymore. and when i begin to drift to the only place in my life that is quiet, that monkey does somersaults in my gray mater. when was that proposal due? what will i do this weekend? did i set the espresso machine? are there dishes in the sink? where is the cat? is it raining? did i answer my emails?
i've been meaning to go to the zen temple for a retreat weekend of silent meditation, sort of a monkey betty ford. but the dates keep passing me by. the monkey is too drunk to drive....