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my sex drive has suddenly kicked into overdrive. it must be a hormonal thing. i'm sure this long stint of celibacy has nothing at all to do with it. i so envy those women who can have casual sex. every now and then it gets to me. i don't sleep well, i feel always on edge and just a tad bitchy. i typically go along alright, as long as i stay busy and don't think about it. but, i think, this little episode of phone sex (something i don't normally get into) i had a couple of weeks ago woke up the little animal in me. it must have been better for me than it was for him, because he hasn't called back. not that it matters a great deal, it was just phone. ;) it irritates the hell out of me when i reach the point where i start looking at men i know, and those i don't, and wonder how good they would be in bed. when my eyes, which should be focused on theirs, in mid conversation, wander to lips, to hands, and down. the recent conversations i'd had with someone led to a focused distraction on my state of mind, or, rather, state of libido.
i'm not celibate because i am a prude. i have had meaningless sex.... but it just leaves me wanting more. i need a strong mental connection....i need control....domination. i also have a healthy respect for my sexual health and don't sleep with people who sleep around. you can catch something even if you use a condom.

to borrow lines from cohen again..... i ache in the places where i used to play....

so with a frustrated sigh and in a bitchy mood, i am off to work.....

ciao

maia

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mysticknyght
Jun. 16th, 2003 09:18 am (UTC)
hmmm...yeah, i can understand what you mean when you say you don't want mindless sex. it leaves you always wanting that connection, and with some people, it's just never going to happen.

but celibacy is something i don't think i could ever do...i'd end up retreating to mindless if that was the only other choice...

and when you say you need control and domination, are you saying you're D or s? do you want to do the controlling or do you need to be controlled?
melissamuse
Jun. 16th, 2003 03:50 pm (UTC)
i really like "mindless sex"...the term, not the act! and i don't do celibacy so much by choice...and i don't really have a lack of offers.... i guess i am just picky.
i am most definitely s. doing the controlling would so ruin sex for me! ;)
mysticknyght
Jun. 16th, 2003 05:45 pm (UTC)
i have a friend who uses the term "zipless fuck," but "mindless sex" works better in polite society...

and I suspected the s part, just checking :-)
illiebrat
Jun. 26th, 2003 08:20 pm (UTC)
You know.. it must be in the water or something.. all of my close friends and I have all been feeling the same way.. it's unreal and nothing helps.. nothing at all... I've been like that for about two weeks.. it's finally subsiding now.. thank goodness.
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