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falling behind

so i haven't done a great job keeping up with this blog.... i did for over a year and i am patting myself on the back for that anyway. :)
life has been crazy. i have fallen back into my old workaholic routine and am working about 60 hours a week. but, on a happier note, i am also back in the world of the living and regaining a social life. i have not only made it through two parties without losing my emotional mind, but have played at both.
i've also taken a new approach to play..... previously i've only had one or two close play partners, not being one to play casually. these days casual works just fine for me. perhaps it is because i understand that there will be little in my life beyond casual for some time to come. i like it this way.
for a while there i didn't think i would ever be able to return to the parties... back to that place that carried with it the memory of Chris and our last night together....to the place where i felt his ghost walked and watched. now, there is nothing there, nothing but me, my friends and some new strangers. he is gone...or i am moving on... or both. and i am truly ok with that.
i've moved into my new home, finally. i love the boat. i love waking up to the sun reflecting on the water, and falling asleep to the sweet rocking of the tide. my son has opted to stay at steve's for a while, where the high speed internet lives too. i have never lived alone and am still not sure what to make of it. i come home from work and everything is just as i left it. no dishes in the sink, no empty diet coke cans, no stuff strewn all over the place. i really like that part. the toliet seat always stays down. oh a little separation anxiety lives here too. but, it is good preparation, i suppose, for his parting for college next year. unless my bribes to get him to fo to school here work... on the other hand, i don't mind the dirty dishes to keep him with me another year ;)

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