September 12th, 2003

don't fear death

just a bit...

it has been an emotional work week.
but on a happier note i found a surprise on the boat. every now and then i come home to something left for me on the deck. a cd of the dalai lama's teachings, a box of candy, an origami swan..... today was an interesting surprise and i have no clue how it got here.
i have been trying to acquaint myself with power tools. i do ok with the battery operated ones (wink), i mean real power tools. remember the black and decker tool set i won at the yacht club auction? an electric sander, a jigsaw and a drill. it never crossed my mind that the drill didn't come with those little pointed things you stick in it called bits. until today. yep, a whole set of bits left for me. it was a nice smile given the events of this week.
ok, who is the secret bit giver? this one will make me crazier than the origami!!!
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1. Is the name you have now the same name that's on your birth certificate? If not, what's changed?
my real name is the same. when i married i didn't change my last name. it drove my husband nuts, but i was bonded to my father's name. i couldn't let it go. besides, it makes things easier in a divorce. and since i am the kind of person who had "til death do us part" removed from the vows......

2. If you could change your name (first, middle and/or last), what would it be?
i wouldn't change it. i like my real name very much. i like my middle name too. my last name belonged to my father so it means the world to me. i see them as gifts from my parents. it is the one thing your parents give you that you can keep your entire life and never change. i think my not using it online is more a way of protecting it than protecting me....

3. Why were you named what you were? (Is there a story behind it? Who specifically was responsible for naming you?)
there is one, but if i told you it would give away my real name and then i would have to kill you.

4. Are there any names you really hate or love? What are they and why?
my grandmother's name is syvonne. i like that name. if i had had a girl i wanted to name her Sari Syvonne. my greatgrandmother was carnie. i never liked it as a kid, but now it resonates in my heart. my greatgrandfather was willow. i think it is a wonderful name. my mother has a beautiful name and two middle names. when you put them all together it sounds quite elegant.
my son's name is christopher and i don't like it when people call him chris. i don't like it when he uses chris. i always tell him that his name is christopher, if i had wanted him to be called chris, i would have named him chris.

5. Is the analysis of your name at kabalarians.com accurate? How or how isn't it?
my real name says:
Your name of gives you a clever mind, good business judgment, a sense of responsibility, and an appreciation of the finer things of life. You are serious-minded and not inclined to make light of things even in little ways, and in your younger years you had more mature interests than others your age. Home and family mean a great deal to you and it is natural that you should desire the security of a peaceful, settled home environment where you can enjoy the companionship of family and friends. Whatever you set out to accomplish you do your very best to complete in accordance with what you consider to be right. In the home you assume your responsibilities capably, having the self-confidence to form your own opinions and make your own decisions. Others can rely on you; once you have given your word you will do your utmost to fulfil a responsibility. However, there is a tendency to be a little too independent in your thinking and it is difficult for you to accept the help of others when you should.
i don't think i am serious minded and i always tend to make light of things. home means nothing to me....it is wherever i am at the time. security makes me crazy. settled is a concept i just don't get. the rest is probably close, especially the independent part.

maia means a lot to me too. i have used it for years. it is interesting that the analysis fits better than my real name....
Your name of Maia gives you the desire to understand and to help others but, at the same time you can become too involved in their problems and, as a result, worry too much. You desire a home and family of your own and have the ability to create understanding and harmony in family association as you are pliable, forgiving, and tactful. You love children and would not hesitate to care for any children who might need you. Whenever possible, you avoid argument and turmoil because you prefer not to face an issue if it means hurting anyone's feelings. You shrink from sordidness and poverty because you feel very deeply for anyone in unfortunate circumstances. Though you recognize your responsibilities, you are inclined to put things off until you are forced to take action. If given the opportunity, you could develop musical and artistic abilities.
even the home part kind of fits here. i wanted a home of my own, but a home of my own doesn't fit people's standard definition of home. mine needed to move with me and i have to be close to water. clearly i don't shrink from poverty, but attack it head on. i am the world's greatest procrastinator.




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don't fear death

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i snagged this from mikkiwhitesox, living aboard, it seemed appropriate....

You are The Cabin Boy



You, me lad, are an activist! You will not only change the world, you will make a dyed-in-the-wool Pirate dream of you in a sheep costume. You are the embodiment of the love that dare not hoist its sail! Ahoy thar! You could make a two-patch Pirate turn his head - but then he would lose sleep over it and what good would that do anyone? An innovator, you are WAY ahead of your time - and everyone else's. You are sensitive and artsy-fartsy. You say things like, "artsy-fartsy" but there is always a slight giggle in your voice when you say it - like Paul Lynde on Hollywood Squares delivering a staggering punch line. Speaking of "punching" the only "punching" you would do is punching up that outfit with some accessories - say, a little bandana and some glass beads. You're not the Pirate we want in a fight, but we want you there for the crying game that follows! You go, girl.




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but it is the disclaimer i like best....

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