August 2nd, 2003

don't fear death

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i was going to go to the party tonight but have decided it may not be the best idea, so i won't. i am doing ok....and hitting the "finish line" of what has been one of the most difficult years in my life. tomorrow will be a year since Chris took his own life and devastated mine.
i had a strange dream last night. someone called me to tell me Chris was in the hospital...that he had a heart attack. i went running to the hospital but the nurses wouldn't let me in to see him. i kept telling them they had to because there was a terrible mistake. it could not be Chris in there because Chris was dead. they finally let me in. it was him. we held each other and cried and cried. it was all some horrible thing his mother set up....making me think he was dead and convincing him i had run off. how all that worked who knows....it was a dream. but we were reunited and madly in love.
whatever....
so the year comes to a close and it is really over. unless he is an elephant, he has been reborn. now, in a sort, it is time for me to do the same. and i am ready. truly ready.
don't fear death

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sheeesh.....
don't fear death

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obviously i am bored. satellite is out again. i am playing materia magica and running around killing things to level. it takes a long time to kill things....but since it rounds on its own i just sit and wait and play in other windows while my opponent (or me!) dies. and i have a pet pony now :)
today i am relaxing. tonight i will do some work. :) i should go out and do some work on the sailboat, but it is too hot.
at some point i need to get myself dressed and out to metairie (i hate going to metairie) to the ethnic market to get some paneer and masala.
ok, when i am writing about such trivial things, it is time to get moving!
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