June 15th, 2003

don't fear death

come sail away

outreach was rained out so carolyn and i opted for drinks at the yacht club. busy night. and it didn't take long before i had a couple of offers for sailing lessons and an invitation to ride along on the wednesday night races. i need to get to the yacht club more often. :)
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don't fear death

i hate thinking of subjects....

i slept really late today....till 11. i always feel so guilty when i sleep half the day away.

i reposted my ad at alt.com to assist me in meeting my "date-a-month" deal. i think i have replied to one email there. there is such a different caliber of people at alt. i don't like it at all. i think, over the years, i have met one decent, real person through alt. but, for the most part..... well, let a recent reply explain:

I enjoy women you are not afraid to let their hair down. I live a very discreet life, because I beleave what I do and the life I live is my business. I'm looking for people who share the same thoughts. Race is not an issue with me, so if it don't bother you, contact me soon.

enough said?

bondage.com is better. nerve.com is even better, but mostly vanilla.

Pick a band and answer using that band's song titles.

Leonard Cohen (of course)

1. Are you male or female?
Winter Lady
...trav'ling lady, stay awhile
until the night is over.
i'm just a station on your way,
i know I'm not your lover.

Our Lady Of Solitude
....all summer long she touched me
she gathered in my soul
from many a thorn, from many thickets
her fingers, like a weaver's
quick and cool

2. Describe yourself:
.....suzanne takes your hand now
she leads you to the river
she is wearing rags and feathers
from Salvation Army counters
and the sun pours down like honey
on our lady of the harbour
and she shows you where to look
amid the garbage and the flowers

The Butcher
...i'm broken down
from a recent fall.
blood upon my body
and ice upon my soul,

3. How do some people feel about you?
Joan of Arc
...now the flames they followed Joan of Arc
as she came riding through the dark;
no moon to keep her armour bright,
no man to get her through this very smoky night.

The Window
...O chosen love, O frozen love, O tangle of matter and ghost.
O darling of angels, demons and saints
and the whole broken-hearted host - gentle this soul.

4. How do you feel about yourself?
...so now I sail from sky to sky
and all the blackness sings
against the boat that I have made
of mutilated wings

Lady Midnight
...then she pointed at me where I kneeled on her floor,
she said, "don't try to use me or slyly refuse me,
just win me or lose me,
it is this that the darkness is for."

5. Describe an old girlfriend/boyfriend/interest:
A Thousand Kisses Deep
....but sometimes when the night is slow
the wretched and the meek
we gather up our hearts and go
a thousand kisses deep

Chelsea Hotel
...i remember you
well in the Chelsea Hotel,
you were talking so brave and so sweet,
giving me head on the unmade bed,
while the limousines wait in the street.
those were the reasons and that was New York,
we were running for the money and the flesh.
and that was called love for the workers in song
probably still is for those of them left.

6. Describe your current girlfriend/boyfriend/interest:
Heart With No Companion
....and i sing this for the captain
who's ship has not been built
for the mother in confusion
her cradle still unfilled
for the heart with no companion
for the soul without a king
for the prima ballerina
who cannot dance to anything

...summertime when will you come?
i wanna put my light things on
i wanna put my winter life away
summertime I need a sunny day

7. Where are you?
The Land of Plenty
....don’t really have the courage
to stand where I must stand.
don’t really have the temperament
to lend a helping hand.
don’t really know who sent me
to raise my voice and say:
may the lights in The Land of Plenty
shine on the truth some day.

Diamonds In The Mine
...and there are no letters in the mailbox
and there are no grapes upon the vine
and there are no chocolates in your boxes anymore
and there are no diamonds in the mine.
there is no comfort in the coven of the witch, some very clever doctor went and sterilized the bitch

8. Where would you rather be?
I'm Your Man
....ah, the moon's too bright
the chain's too tight
the beast won't go to sleep

Death of a Ladies Man
...he offered her an orgy in a many mirrored room
he promised her protection for the issue of her womb
she moved her body hard against a sharpened metal spoon
she stopped the bloody rituals of passage to the moon

9. Describe what you want to be:
Humbled in Love
...you will never see a man this naked
i will never hold a woman this close

Love Itself
...in streams of light I clearly saw
the dust you seldom see,
out of which the Nameless makes
a Name for one like me

10. Describe how you live:
....there is a crack in everything
that's how the light gets in.

Waiting for the Miracle
...yeah let's do something crazy,
something absolutely wrong
while we're waiting
for the miracle, for the miracle to come

11. Describe how you love:
Way Down Deep
i wander with you in my sleep
i'm way down, way way down,
way way down deep

If It Be Your Will
....if it be your will
that I speak no more
and my voice be still
as it was before
i will speak no more
i shall abide until
i am spoken for
if it be your will

12. Share a few words of wisdom:
Bird on A Wire
.....i saw a beggar leaning on his wooden crutch,
he said to me, "you must not ask for so much."
and a pretty woman leaning in her darkened door,
she cried to me, "hey, why not ask for more?"

Passing Through
...i was with Franklin Roosevelt's side on the night before he died.
he said, "One world must come out of World War Two" (ah, the fool)
"Yankee, Russian, white or tan," he said, "A man is still a man.
We're all on one road, and we're only passing through."
don't fear death

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a couple of months ago i found myself excited by one of the few television commercials that actually inspire me to buy the product. the commercial showed a boat in a storm....everything rocking to and fro and the rain coming down in sheets. the camera focused in on an upright deck box, tucked safely in a corner and unaffected by the storm. it was a rubbermaid deck box and i had to have it. this box would solve all my outside storage problems. it would fit perfectly. yes, i had to have it. so i went out and spent a little over $50 to have my very own rubbermaid deck box. i was happy. it held all kinds of stuff.

it has been storming here. kinda like the storm on the commercial.

at this very moment the left top of my deckbox is floating away.
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