August 11th, 2002

don't fear death


i'm depressed. ya, i am sure it is normal. i am trying to stay busy.
i miss him. i am trying now to imagine the rest of my life without much promise and shattered dreams. something given so soon and taken so quickly.
i've always loved life. i don't really want to die...but i also don't want to go on living....i don't feel alive....
numb and confused....
sad, so very sad.