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a dream shattered

i went to work wednesday to help go through the apartments on the property and take pictures. most of the apartments, surrounding where we were for katrina, had a couple of feet of water in them and severely damaged roofs. we were truly quite lucky. it was awful though....the stench, the mold and worst of all, the animals left behind. they found the body of a vietnamese woman just a couple of buildings down from the center. i feel just terrible that she died while we were right there and could have helped her. the buildings were marked with the national guard’s big orange “X” that they had been checked, but they hadn’t. no doors or windows were broken down, minus about two and the doors of my center.
christopher found a baby alligator, still alive, in an aquarium in an apartment. we let it go in the lagoon.
we went to the marina. the search for my boat has come to an end. we climbed over the boats to my pier and christopher began digging in the rubble, something i hadn’t done. i was afraid to climb over boats when i was by myself. wouldn’t it have been great to survive all of this and die because i fell off a pier or toppled boats over with no one around to help? in the rubble, we found:
the metal, outside door to my bedroom
my big green tupperware bowl
the drawer to my jewelry box
my cat’s water bowl
the silverware holder that was inside a kitchen drawer and had a chair holding it closed
my kitchen trash can
my toilet brush holder

it is over. i gave up looking for anything else.

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whitetara
Oct. 7th, 2005 06:29 pm (UTC)
I can't even imagine what this must feel like. My fiance's family is from there, and we spent his birthday in early Sept. with the folks who are here in Southern California gathered around the kitchen table making a list of which family members everyone had heard from. I'm just glad that you're still here.
melissamuse
Oct. 9th, 2005 12:52 am (UTC)
that is what i keep telling myself...still here. i am at odds with my teachings because i feel i should not be sad over losing material matter....and it is really the sentimental things (ok, my car too) that hurt the most. i guess i am far from enlightened, eh? :)
beaten_grace
Oct. 7th, 2005 09:51 pm (UTC)
Unfortunately this storm didn't spare all of the wonderful people who give their all for the New Orleans community. If storms had a soul, this would have never happened. When you know what you will be doing as far as moving back goes, please let me know what you need.
melissamuse
Oct. 9th, 2005 12:53 am (UTC)
thanks! it is so hard to know what the future holds. people ask what my plans are and i can only say one day at a time. but we will see each other again one day, i just know it!
stutterclutter
Oct. 8th, 2005 10:05 am (UTC)
What a nightmare. Please know that many of us in the more fortunate parts of the States do truly get what's going on, as much as is possible without being there. I hope our nation can prove it's a truly modern one, and care for all it's citizens.... not to mention, come up with incentives for people like yourself to stay on and rebuild.
melissamuse
Oct. 9th, 2005 12:55 am (UTC)
i wonder about incentives..... real estate has gone mad. rent and purchases are so over priced... i imagine insurance rates will climb as well. i truly want to see new orleans rebuild, but i am just not sure how people who lost their homes will be able to afford to live there anytime soon.
doudance
Oct. 10th, 2005 04:09 am (UTC)
I am so sorry for your loss. i know how much you loved that boat...your home. We satyed through the storm and when back last Thursday for the first time...can't believe it. Just can't believe it.
melissamuse
Oct. 11th, 2005 05:56 pm (UTC)
are you back home to stay?
doudance
Oct. 14th, 2005 07:15 pm (UTC)
Going back to stay with in the next few days. have to admit, I am not looking forward to the smell and the muck, but it's home and we need to be there.
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